Temptation, weakness, prayer

So here we are at Matthew Chapter 4.  Jesus was led into the dessert to be tempted by the Devil.  I think a lot of people smirk at that because they don't really believe in a person or creature,  in other words a real Devil.   I have to say that I do believe in the devil. I know he is real.  I have been tormented by that creature enough to recognize him by now.  He attacks me where I am the weakest,  my tendency to put my faith in other people than Jesus Christ, my anger.  my use of porn.   I have been so overwhelmed with anger as to become irrational.  I have had to speak out loud. "God rebuke you Satan"!  I probably sound insane by now but that's OK.  I am just saying I have experienced Satan.  I have never seen him in person or heard his voice audibly.  If I ever did I may consider getting my meds adjusted.

Jesus, on the other hand,  did meet with Satan in the flesh after fasting for 40 days and nights.  Satan attempted to get him where he would be the weakest, hunger.  He then attacked him I think with Pride.  Basically he said throw yourself down and the angels will affirm your status as the Son of God before men. lastly He tempted him by offering the splendor of worldly greatness without the sacrifice he knew he would have to make.  Jesus responded to all with the book of Deuteronomy.  It was the sword of the spirit the word of God which defeated him.

I am hoping to start singing in the church choir at 2nd Pres in Greenville, SC.  I sang for a short while at Woodruff RD Pres. and enjoyed it.  In the end I let it go for no really good reason other than being generally down.

I am Praying now for God to help my by upholding my spirit through all things.  I need to be able to minister to others.  I am told by my Pastor Robert Spears that I can minister to others through the over flow of Christs love and work in my own life.  I need to lay claim everyday to Christ alone for my self worth.  He made me and sustains me through all things..

Lord help me to overcome the pain of adultery,  Help me to forgive,  Rebuke the devil--Protect me and my family.  Help me to achieve great things for Jesus sake.  Lord please use me to bring the lost to saving faith in Jesus Christ

Holy Spirit, you lead Jesus to the desert to be tempted, you protected him and through you he defeated the devil.  Please bring me through the desert, protect me , help me to overcome the enemy of my soul.